Today's topic: Supernatural.
But this time I won't talk about the tv show. This time I want to tell you about one of my biggest fears.
It's Monsters / Ghosts / Etc.
Yesterday I saw the post from the lovely @selfloveliv wivh was about our real feelings and I saw: I'm not alone with that fear, even though I always thought I am.
I always had problems falling asleep because of my anxiety.
Everytime I would lay in bed, sounds like cracking wood, wind or rain drops would scare me to death.
Also I had situation where I heard people talking above me even though there was nobody, or the sound of moving furniture around when I was home alone.
When I stare to long into the dark my mind create things that are not there like moving shadows.
Since I moved together with my boyfriend it got better and I just have 5 out of 30 nights where I'm reaaally scared.
But when he's gone for a night I try my best to stay awake long and avoid sleeping as long as possible. I'm 20 years old and sleeping alone is hell for me.
Thinking something supernatural may kill you every second you're not watching is not something you can realx to while laying in bed.
So what do you?
What helps me is following:
♡ waiting till I am tired as heck
♡ i listen to kids radio plays
♡ going to bed with a good mood (bad moods make me think and 'hallucinate' more)
♡ turning on a little light over night
( I take LED one's because I'm pretty scared about electronics at night, thiniking the hous may burn down, etc so I plug out everything at night 🤦🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️)
Last but not least:
It's ok to be anxious!
You don't have to be embarrassed about whatever you're afraid of!
And now go and do yourself something good 💗💫
Crying is cleansing, speaking on your pain allows release. If you hold it in, that is where it will stay. The healing process can prove to be more painful than the actual events that caused your pain in the first place. However, it’s a necessary part of your spiritual, emotional, and mental well-being. #letitgo#heal#release#cry#cleanse